Day 19

Well, I almost quit yesterday, but I'm glad that I didn't. I lost two pounds from yesterday!!! HOORAY!!! I'm so excited. I guess that's what I needed to continue through the next week. Maybe I won't reach my goal but I can get as close as I can.

Day 18

So we are on the last week of the diet... I honestly don't know if I can make it. I mean I have made it this far, but it still really sucks. I have only lost seven pounnds and am not going to make my goal by the end. The dieat does say that you can do an apple day... are you kidding me, there is no way that I can do that, I'm already dying.

I guess we'll see what happens

Day ?

I have completely lost track of this diet. I went to New York with my mom and sister this weekend and I'm exhausted. So I kept taking my drops and I was just going to have some bites of the great food there is to eat.

Thursday night when we got there I had a McDonalds grilled chicken sandwich and took off the bun and maynoise and a couple of bites of tiramisu from the local deli that Adam found the last time we were there. Friday morning, eggs from the same place, and a shrimp pasta only eating a couple of pasta's but having a piece of pizza... delicious. Then some bites of cheesecake Friday night. When we got back to the hotel i discovered that I was getting a canker core on the underside of my tongue where you put the drops. Saturday, no drops, eggs in the morning, three pieces of pizza from Giradeli's, and a bite of cupcake. Sunday, put medicine on the canker, took drops in the morning, cinnamon cake for breakfast, couple of bites of hamburger, then a whole hamburger for dinner. Monday, medicine again, no drops, banana for breakfast, and shrimp taco when we got back to Dallas.

I weighed myself when I got home, I had gained half a pound back. This morning I went back on the drops, still have the canker sore.

Day 12

I tried on my jeans. They are still pretty tight. I fit into the bigger size, 29 but not into the 28's. I guess as long as I have something to take with me to New York. I am consistantly losing a pound a day which is good.

Adam and I have kind of been in bumm moods lately. I'm hoping that when I get back from New York we will both be destressed!

Day 11

So I was able to start taking the drops again yesterday. I also got to hang out with my sister. It was a fun day and I suprisingly didn't feel hungry at all. I think there might be something to being busy and avoiding the hunger.

So when I woke up this morning and weighed myself, I broke the 150 barrier. It feels really good. I think tomorrow I will try on my jeans to see if I can wear them to New York. I'm so scared that they still won't fit. I really need to be able to wear them because I can't go to New York in the sweats that I wear here everyday. Luckily, I have my dance classes tonight and I'll work out Wednesday and Thursday before I go so hopefully it will give me the added inches that I need!

Day 9

So I didn't lose any weight this morning. That kind of sucks. But I have to realize that it's a timing issue. I just really want to break that 150 barrier. I can't seem to get past it. I have to say that I think about it all day long. It would feel so good to be back in the 140's. That's were I have been most of my life and that's were I feel very, very comfortable.

I do have to say that I have had a very bad image of myself the past couple of months. I know that I am already skinny but it's hard to see it in yourself sometimes. When I was working out yesterday, I looked in the mirror and saw the old Emily, the skinny one that I always was very self-confident about. It made me feel good. I saw it last night as I was brushing my teeth too. I haven't tried on my jeans yet, because I'm afraid that they will still be too tight. Once I break that 140 something I think I may put then on just to see.

I aslo applied for a couple of jobs last night. One was for the Boys and Girls club and the other was for a homeless shelter. They are both secretary positions, which I think that I can do something other than, but both wanted more experience than I actually have. It kind of sucks because I have qualifications and skills that I know I can do something worthwhile with, but feel that no one will look at me because I'm young and haven't kept a job for a year. I guess we'll see what happens.

Adam wanted to add that he loves Emily. He is so funny.

Day 8

well, i can't take drops today because...ummm... girl issues that would not allow me to take a pregnancy hormone. So i'm suppose to stop taking the drops for two days and then continue on. But, i'm suppose to stick to the diet... ARE YOU KIDDING ME? So i'm taking dexatrim to keep my hunger at bay. I actually think that I like the dexatrim better because it works better at not making me feel hungry and it has caffine so i am able to get up and go a little better. But dexatrim has no proof of results.

Adam and I ate eggs this morning and then went to the gym for an hour. When i came back from the gym I had lost two pounds. That feels good. Adam is now cooking us scallops which is making the apartment smell like gross fish..... oh well. My stomache is growling but i don't feel that starving sensation that has been presistant over the last week.