Day 9

So I didn't lose any weight this morning. That kind of sucks. But I have to realize that it's a timing issue. I just really want to break that 150 barrier. I can't seem to get past it. I have to say that I think about it all day long. It would feel so good to be back in the 140's. That's were I have been most of my life and that's were I feel very, very comfortable.

I do have to say that I have had a very bad image of myself the past couple of months. I know that I am already skinny but it's hard to see it in yourself sometimes. When I was working out yesterday, I looked in the mirror and saw the old Emily, the skinny one that I always was very self-confident about. It made me feel good. I saw it last night as I was brushing my teeth too. I haven't tried on my jeans yet, because I'm afraid that they will still be too tight. Once I break that 140 something I think I may put then on just to see.

I aslo applied for a couple of jobs last night. One was for the Boys and Girls club and the other was for a homeless shelter. They are both secretary positions, which I think that I can do something other than, but both wanted more experience than I actually have. It kind of sucks because I have qualifications and skills that I know I can do something worthwhile with, but feel that no one will look at me because I'm young and haven't kept a job for a year. I guess we'll see what happens.

Adam wanted to add that he loves Emily. He is so funny.

Day 8

well, i can't take drops today because...ummm... girl issues that would not allow me to take a pregnancy hormone. So i'm suppose to stop taking the drops for two days and then continue on. But, i'm suppose to stick to the diet... ARE YOU KIDDING ME? So i'm taking dexatrim to keep my hunger at bay. I actually think that I like the dexatrim better because it works better at not making me feel hungry and it has caffine so i am able to get up and go a little better. But dexatrim has no proof of results.

Adam and I ate eggs this morning and then went to the gym for an hour. When i came back from the gym I had lost two pounds. That feels good. Adam is now cooking us scallops which is making the apartment smell like gross fish..... oh well. My stomache is growling but i don't feel that starving sensation that has been presistant over the last week.

Day 7

So I have gotten to the point where I am trying to decide if I want to continue to be hungry or if I want to just gain weight and buy new clothes.

Adam seems to be doing ok, I think he eats a lot more than me. My problem is that I don't want to eat an apple thre times a day.... I want a cupcake!!! But I have lost five to six pounds and that feels good. It will feel better when I get back into the 140's. So Adam came home for lunch and brought lettuce wraps from Pei Wei!!! I do like that... but what are we going to do for date night, we usually go to the cheesecake factory and a movie... that's not happening!!

I wonder if I was working and didn't just sit home, if I would be so hungry. You know, have something to take my mind off the hunger. I did look for jobs today. I did look at a couple of websites this morning. But, I have never been called back from a Monster.com.... how do you find a ligitimate job that will actually look at your resume?

Day 5

So today starts day five. I have lost four pounds!!!! It feels really good. but I admit that I am hungery. The drops taste disgusting.... because it's a pregnancy hormone, i'm having issues. My face is breaking out and i'm rapidily fight off gingivitis that i can't seem to keep up with. It kind of makes me wonder if it's really worth it.

I am hungry but i stuck to my diet pretty well. Last night Adam cooked us some tilapia and I made some pico to put on top of it. It was really good. Adam was still hungry and wanted to keep eating but I was pretty good about stopping. Sometimes I wonder if i'm even getting in the 500 calories.. I'm sure I am! I have to admit that by the time i'm ready to take more drops, I'm starving and craving sugars.

Day 3

So today is the first starvation day. I can eat, but it requires effort and cooking. So today i ate an apple, drank water, then ate gross getting old salad for lunch, drank water, and I have a headache. I'm doing ok hungerwise but tired and have a headache.

So the missionariers are coming over for dinner tonight. Great, feeding someone when we just started this diet. Oh well, guess they will get lots of left overs. I don't really know what to talk to them about though. Hope they are interesting kids!!!

Day 1

So the drops came and we started the diet. The first two days you eat what ever you want. We ate waffles for breakfast, Chipotle for lunch and Cheesecake Factory for dinner. And cheesecake for breakfast this morning.

Adam and I talked about what is going to start on Monday. I think the hardest thing is going to be the no eating out. I'm an eating out junkie. But the drops are suppose to help you not be hungry. Maybe it's time to really start looking for a job to keep my mind off the food!!!

So have you ever noticed that when one part of your life falls apart everything else does too? I have been sick the last couple of days/week and a half. Now the house has fallen part, my teeth are having issues, and other personal things. I hate waiting for everything to come around, but I just slowly have to get everything on track again, which inevitably means that in a month it will fall apart again :)

Weightloss

So i'm skinny and I know it. But I have to admit that since i have been married, i have gained fifteen pounds. Not bad, but not exactly what I want.

So Adam, completed a triathlon today. He was amazing, but I feel a litle bad about myself.

My parents just finished a round of HCG. It's a diet supplement drops that keeps you to a very tight dietary schedule. My mom lost a lot of weight and looks amazing. My aunt did it as well and looks great. My mom, sister, and I are going to New York in a couple of weeks and I would like to be able to by the same size clothes that I always but no longer fit in. So I bought the product, I've got the membership which gives you recipes, menu's, shopping list and tracks your progress. I'm very excited, not so much for the no more eating part, but i only have to do it for 26 days, which also creates a habit. Hopefully, I'll be able to learn to cook some good healthy meals by then and I can keep my body that I have always loved.

I'll keep an update.